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On Sunday, October 27th after we went in for our first lab tests the Dr. Called and said his bilirubin count was way higher and he was even more in the high risk zone now. They sent us some biliights to our house and told us to keep him in at all times. He could be out for 30 mins every 3 hours. This was really hard on me because I just wanted to hold our new baby that we had waited so long for! He also didnt like the lights and so he cried a lot in them. It was really hard to listen to him cry so I would always take him out and wrap him up. I think he was crying because it was cold. All he can wear is a diaper in there. We went back for lab tests almost daily and watched as they pricked his tiny feet and squoze for blood. We had the lights and tests for 15 days until it was all figured out. 

Kason took a week off work which was so perfect! I wish he could stay here with us forever! It was really nice to not be left alone because it all was pretty overwhelming.

On Wednesday, our 3rd day home, we were feeling so tired and rundown and my sweet mom came and stayed the night to help with Wrekker. We hadnt slept much at all because keeping him calm under those lights was literally an all night task. We are so grateful for her!
Wrekker celebrated his first Halloween and I never thought I would be able to put him in all three outfits that he had, but I was welcomed to motherhood real fast when he spit up in each one throughout the day.
Wrekker had his first bath in the sink downstairs and loves to take baths! He never cried once! Wrekker has so many admirers and the whole month we have had countless visitors and everyone wants to hold him. He is already so loved! We still cant get over how precious he is. Mom and Dad are still adjusting but I think we have almost got the hang of this parenting thing.. at least for now! 

Breastfeeding has been kind of a struggle. They asked us to take a 6 day break so the jaundice could run its course and so I have been pumping. I have to admit it is nice feeding him formula so Kason can do it in the middle of the night, but I miss being so close to Wrekker and giving him the best thing for his body. It will be nice to be back on and I pray we can do it until his body doesnt need the great nutrients as much anymore. 

I think as the weeks go on we are starting to get into a better routine. Some days are really hard but its getting easier. I do SO much laundry. Our house has been over ran by baby things, and I really miss spending all my seconds on Kason. It seems like every time we lay down to cuddle or even just relax and kiss the baby cries ha ha ha, Faith Hill really knew why she was talking about when she said, "A baby changes everything!" 

Around week two, Wrekker started crying a lot more and nothing would console him. He was telling me he was hungry almost every hour which was frustratin for me because its hard to spend literally all your day breastfeeding and feeling like you cant do or be anywhere else! One night he had cried ALL day and I finally tried giving him a left over bottle from when his Jaundice was bad and he ate all 2 ounces in literally under a minute. I realized that maybe he wasnt getting enough breastmilk and it broke my heart to think he was so hungry. We started supplementing an ounce after feedings and that has changed him completely! No more crying for us! We continued to supplement about an ounce every feeding and this has really helped so much.
We cannot believe how much our lives have changed for the better! Wrekker has brought such a sweet spirit into our home. We love him so much already!